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  NOTHING IMPORTANT

  HAPPENED TODAY

  WILL CARVER

  For nobody

  ‘Nobody joins a cult. Nobody joins something they think is going to hurt them. You join a religious organisation, you join a political movement, and you join with people that you really like.’

  Deborah Layton – Peoples Temple member.

  We are The People of Choice

  The ones now with courage

  And we choose not to fear

  This is one solution

  It is not the end

  Nor is it the beginning

  There are always more who choose to live

  There is but one certainty

  CONTENTS

  TITLE PAGE

  DEDICATION

  EPIGRAPH

  PROLOGUE

  PART ONE: CULT

  THAT MORNING

  EARLIER THAT DAY

  TWO WEEKS LATER

  PART TWO: KILLER

  PART THREE: LEGACY

  ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

  ABOUT THE AUTHOR

  COPYRIGHT

  PROLOGUE

  Nobody cares anymore.

  By the time they get to him, nearly a year has passed.

  The public have lost interest, moved on to something new.

  Some old schizo takes himself to the woods to commit suicide. So what? How is that a loss? How is that news? Schedule it as an afterthought.

  You put a gun to your head and squeeze the trigger, there’s no time for second-guessing. You jump off the roof of a multi-storey car park, it’s difficult to back out when you’re twenty feet from hitting the concrete.

  There’s a strip of duct tape on the ground that he ripped off his face when he changed his mind and tried to call for help. Nobody came. There are scratch marks on his wrists where he tried to escape and some abrasions on the tree from the handcuffs. The key that was thrown out of reach is somewhere beneath the leaves.

  Who gives a fuck? Some stupid, old fool wanders into the forest, tapes his mouth shut and handcuffs himself to a tree. He throws the key away so he can’t get out. And he waits to die in a long, drawn-out and painful way. So what?

  It was his choice, right?

  His decision.

  Here’s the kicker: the idiot strapped himself to the trunk with his hands above a branch. He couldn’t get the cuffs lower than three feet from the ground. So there was no way to lie down on the floor when he needed to sleep.

  When he is found, his wrists are bearing the full weight of his body. His left shoulder against the tree trunk, his head lolling forwards, the fronts of his legs dragging across the floor, his back unnaturally arched. There are marks on his body from animals who only found him because he shit his pants repeatedly in those first four agonising days.

  The silly fool with a note in his pocket saying that he is the last one. A person of choice. That it needed to be done in this way because he had to not want to die.

  Otherwise it wouldn’t count.

  But nobody cares. It’s over.

  Nobody will know who he was.

  Nobody will remember his name.

  The guy is a goddamned Nobody.

  PART ONE

  CULT

  1

  225–233

  We don’t have to say go.

  Or jump.

  Or count down from three.

  We just know.

  For we are The People of Choice, the ones now with courage.

  And we choose not to fear.

  You know us. We’ve stocked your supermarket shelves. We’ve poured you coffee. We water your plants and feed your cat while you are on holiday.

  We couldn’t possibly be in that group. That crazy cult. No way. Our boys play football together. We are your neighbour. We are your nephew. We are your daughter. We recommended that film you liked so much.

  We are everywhere.

  And we leave our homes and workplaces from the various dots across the capital and congregate on Chelsea Bridge as arranged, none of us offering a formal introduction, nobody speaking at all. Our paths have crossed on numerous occasions – nothing worth noting; nothing to dwell on.

  We are just nine lives.

  Nine personalities.

  Nine problems.

  Nine decisions.

  We each received our calling this morning, the verification of our membership. A letter that confirmed our importance, our place in history; the continuation of this legacy. We all read that it was our time and knew immediately where we should meet and when. We knew what to bring and how we should use it.

  We are one solution.

  This is not the beginning.

  We are but nine more.

  Four of us approach the self-anchored suspension bridge from the south, Battersea and beyond. Five from north of the river come via Chelsea and Pimlico. For some, this is not the closest bridge to their house, but this was the agreement.

  It must be here.

  We know what to do.

  Those from the south arrive at intervals, each wearing the same expression, each with a choice, each passing a bearded man with a video camera aimed in the wrong direction, ready to capture nothing important to the west. Missing an opportunity.

  One becomes two and two become four until all nine of us are sitting, motionless, gazing to the east, waiting for the moment. We don’t count down; we don’t speak.

  We don’t have to.

  We just know.

  And we stay seated for a while, perched on the great steel box that runs the length of the bridge on both sides of the road, overlooking the path ahead and the river beyond. This is our time for final contemplation.

  This is our moment of selection.

  We sat behind you in class. We washed your car while you went shopping. We employed you. We are your father. We gave you that recipe for shortbread. We stitched your daughter back together when she came off her bike.

  And we open our rucksacks at the same time, still seated on the cold metal, still looking out across the blackening water; the bulbs that illuminate the elongated M-shaped suspension create a matching W in the pool beneath. And we put on our black jumpers.

  Each of us pulls our head through first, leaving the hood up.

  The Lovers.

  The Ungrateful.

  The Poet.

  We all slide our arms in. Left, then right.

  The Doctor.

  The Nobodies.

  And Young Levant.

  Our decision has been made.

  We don’t have to say go.

  Or jump.

  Or count down from three.

  We just know.

  2

  OTHER PEOPLE

  The trick to running a cult is to get other people involved. Not new members or followers. Not more subscribers or a greater mailing list. It doesn’t matter if there are six people who think someone is Jesus or there are a million admirers hoping for a seat on the spaceship that will fly them away as Earth implodes with greed and apathy.

  It’s not the apostles that make the cult.

  It’s everybody else.

  What is needed are the other people. Because other people always fuck things up.

  Take the small town of Antelope, Oregon. A smudge on a map. Fifty people looking for quiet. They need a post office, a general store, a school and a church to exist. Not to survive. They haven’t moved here for that. Everybody knows everybody and everybody wants to be alone. Because they’ve come here to see out their years in peace. Then die.

  Drop in four thousand disciples adhering to the philosophies of Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh. Watch as they are welcomed as a peaceful people, renouncing a world of materialism in favour of a
spiritual life. Embrace their desire to establish their own community.

  Now get other people involved.

  See how the word ‘community’ transforms into the word ‘commune’. Now wait as tensions rise and hostility grows. Wait a little longer. Because here come the other people. And it’s easy to take other people and make them fear something. Soon, a school teacher or postal worker or bar owner or dairy farmer has used the word ‘cult’.

  Sit back and bask in your success as civilians are weaponised and cafes are poisoned and phone lines are tapped.

  This is other people.

  Take a student pastor at the Somerset Southside Methodist Church, Indiana. Tell him that he can’t integrate black people into his congregation. Piss him off. Give him a crusade.

  Watch as he moves on and gives people hope. See his drive for racial equality. You don’t call the healings fake. Not yet. You call them Baptists. You say they are a church. He calls them the Wings of Deliverance.

  Now let him open a soup kitchen for the poor, then watch as other people become involved. Because other people have an innate ability to take something good and turn it straight to shit.

  Migrate that church to Guyana. Call it a compound. Call it Paradise. Call it Jonestown. Say that members did not travel there of their own free will. Get other people to interfere. Intervene. Get shot at. Wait a moment while everything is ruined. While nine hundred men and women take cyanide to kill themselves. Let them poison their children.

  Now you can call it a cult. And feel safe that you’re not one of them.

  You.

  Other people.

  Take David Koresh. Take Waco. Tell the world he has several wives and fucks his kids. Set fire to buildings. Smoke him out. Kill twenty of those kids while you’re there.

  Get involved.

  Take the Manson Family. Take Scientology. Take any passage from any holy book out of context.

  Take the unknown and drop in some fear and insecurity.

  What have you done?

  You.

  The other people club.

  You. At arm’s length. Outside looking in. With your judgement and your free choice and your safety. You don’t understand.

  Not one of these people thought that they were part of a cult.

  And you, you’re no different. You could be part of a cult right now and you don’t even realise. You think you have a choice.

  So, put that rope around your neck.

  Now wait.

  Here come the other people.

  THAT MORNING

  3

  225–226 – LOVERS

  For the last week, they’ve been telling each other one thing they like about the other person, every day. And it seems to have been working.

  They’re fucking when the first child walks in. It’s the same morning sex they used to love before kids came along. When he would lie on top of her and they’d look at each other, pretending that they didn’t care about his sweaty, clammy skin and her stale breath.

  But it’s passionless now. Forced. And they don’t look at one another. And they don’t bother with foreplay or kissing or talking.

  Or tenderness.

  Or feeling.

  They’re still spooning when that first kid walks in.

  The little shit says, ‘Mummy’ in a half excited-by-a-new-day, half still-rubbing-his-eyes way. He toddles over to the bed and starts tugging at the covers that disguise his parents’ activity. They tell him that he has to stop. That they’re just having a cuddle. That he needs to go downstairs and put the television on.

  But the little brat decides that he doesn’t want to go downstairs without mum and dad. That he wants to perch on the edge of the mattress, swinging his legs, until they get up with him.

  They are trying.

  Desperately trying to love each other.

  Again, they push, telling him that they’ll only be a minute or so, smiling like everything is normal, ruining the moment even further. In their heads they tell themselves that it’s not the kids’ fault. It’s theirs.

  And they are still linked together when another child dodders around the doorframe.

  The one they stupidly thought could save them.

  Make them a real family.

  They don’t want to shout at the kids or tell them off. Because neither wants to be the bad parent. Because they only truly love them now. And it doesn’t do those boys any good. They’re moments away from abandoning everything and letting the little pests get their way again.

  This is how every day starts. Though not always with pitiful intercourse.

  Then the letterbox slams shut downstairs and the mail crashes to the doormat. Two utility bills they won’t worry about, a pizza delivery leaflet, a free catalogue that arrives every month from a website that was only ever visited once, a card from the local estate agents showing which houses have been selling in the area, requesting to give them a valuation on their property, and one final letter addressed to both lovers.

  It uses their names. Not their numbers. Not their job. Not their archetype. Not their clearest personality trait.

  It’s their time.

  Congratulations. You have been chosen. Your membership request has been accepted.

  And they are still just hard and wet enough to continue when both children innocently race out of the door to collect the benign bills and junk mail and death sentence. The bed squeaks ferociously for another twenty seconds or so to mark the last moments of their frigid ceremony, their attempted intimacy.

  They are both empty and unfulfilled when the two boys come skidding back into their lie with a plastic-wrapped furniture brochure and innocuous white envelope. They’re sitting up now. The boys make paper aeroplanes from unwanted flyers.

  The lovers are shocked at the size of the bills they won’t have to pay. They don’t yet realise that gas usage and interest accrued means nothing to those who are chosen.

  In the final envelope are two pages. Reading a few words ignites them into action. Both of them slipping out from under the sheets, both throwing on something to cover their modesty, both exiting the bedroom, descending the stairs with two contented children in tow, the furniture publication left resting on the quilt, both walking barefoot on the cold kitchen tiles and both standing in front of the stove, ignoring the children who are pulling at them from behind.

  He holds down the button to produce a string of sparks and turns the dial that releases the gas they won’t have to pay for. Once the hob is fired up, she places the letter and envelope into the flames and they both wait, staring until it is flaking, brittle carbon, incinerating the evidence.

  As they discussed.

  As was agreed.

  As the others will be doing right now.

  What a team.

  And they crouch down to be at the same level as the boys – it’s easier to think that they’ll be better off without them. And they kiss their children. And they tell them that they love them.

  And they make breakfast.

  This may be their last day, but it should be no different from any other.

  4

  231 – UNGRATEFUL

  Still hungover at noon, she opens the bank statement first, skipping all the outgoing figures next to items like shoes and bags and bar tabs and restaurants and other things she knows she doesn’t need but at the time believed were imperative to her happiness.

  It’s not happiness.

  And it’s never enough.

  Five tattoos only felt better than four tattoos for a moment. The joy of ten thousand social-media followers was as fleeting as the climax she faked with that reality TV contestant. The drug doesn’t work.

  Her mother had told her that fulfilment can only be achieved when you choose to give something back. She’s only been gone two years but her daughter has forgotten this lesson.

  The ungrateful young woman skims over the evidence of the mistakes she hasn’t learned from and heads straight to the reality of the figure written in red
ink at the bottom of the final page. The expression on her face doesn’t alter, it does not convey what she feels inside, but the tears offer a clue.

  There’s a second letter from the bank confirming an increase to her overdraft limit. And a wave of relief washes the tears away, diluting another headache. And the severity of real life dissipates for a few seconds.

  But her credit-card bill reintroduces panic. She’s been saving it for days.

  She throws up into her mouth and swallows it back down.

  There are four other credit cards.

  Her father only knows about one.

  Her sister has one card that she clears each month. And she remembers their mother.

  The bathroom door is locked, as it always is. Just in case. She sits on the closed toilet lid, the tiles are cold beneath her bare feet, reminding her that she, at least, has some capacity to feel. She stands up, takes a swig of water from the tap at the sink and splashes water against her sad-clown face. Looking at herself in the mirror, she takes a picture with her phone. Not for social media. For her. And she drops back to her position of self-pity.

  There’s more.

  She tells herself that she can’t open another bill. That it will kill her. That she will have to confess to her father and he will have to bail her out again. And everyone will know.

  But one of the letters in her growing pile of debt and guilt will get her out of this mess.

  One white envelope contains her exit strategy.

  It gives her the choice.

  She tears a strip of toilet roll to wipe those drugged panda eyes, lifts the toilet slightly from her seated position and pushes the mascara-blotted paper through the gap between her legs before sitting down again to work through the last few letters.

  Her store card has £2,668.48 outstanding. Her allowance will easily cover the minimum monthly payment, but paying a similar amount on the rest of her cards leaves her feeling crippled. And it’s only four months until Christmas. And the only way she knows to cope with the stress is to buy herself something nice. Something she doesn’t really need. Something else she can’t afford.